Knee Replacement Surgery

    I am going in the hospital in about 12 hours for what is considered major surgery. They are going to replace my right knee joint. It has been described as the most painful surgery that they do. They cut off the bone close to the joint and glue in a titanium socket and insert a plastic cushion. Which is the cartridge that is missing in my existing joint. 40 years ago I had surgery and they removed part that was torn. They did this before the non-evasive procedure that they use now.
    Any way it hurts like hell and has gotten worst in the last few years and I have high hopes to be able to walk again.
    What has been interesting here is preparing for this. I rewrote my will last night. Thinking that I should take care of business. I have every intention in coming home what the responsible thing to do is prepare for the worst. So if I have offended anyone, wronged them in any way "I'm sorry". 
    Lets see, my biggest regret is for having been such a bad father. I was so selfish and did not think of anyone's feelings other than my needs at the time. I have been working on healing that with my two daughters and I think we have made some good progress. I must say I still feel isolated and I know that I am responsible for that. I really do love my daughters and they are turning out to be amazing women, I am really proud of them.
   I am looking forward to the rest of my life I turn 68 next month and my new knee is my gift to my self. I plan on having the kind of mobility it will take to have the kind of life I deserve. I have a lot of miles left in me and they are the best yet to come. It will be nice to walk with out constant pain.
    I really have come to appreciate my wife Sue more in the last few days as I have looked at maybe not coming home from the hospital. We have a deep connection and I realized that we have more work to do. It would be sad to not finish what she and I have together. It's too soon. Thank you Sue for everything.
   I will see you all on the other side.